i had a nice chat with my friend.
only towards the end i guess.
he was singing and playing with his guitar.
for like so bloody long.
followed by uncomfortable silence.
maybe its because ITS BEEN LONG.
and there is alot we don't know about each other.
i'm glad i told you how i feel.
even though it was online.
but you made me happy.

pet says you're hopeless.
serious.
and its not my fault.
=))


its been a year and its all faded to grey.
but its the only thing that keeps me warm.


i went out yesterday.
and it was quite boring.
but i finally got to walk around vivo!
and the forever 21 there is so huge!
ohmygoodness!
i want to shop.
and i got my christmas cards.
and they were ohsopretty!

i shall go there on wednesday.
with my fiancee!
yesyes.

i think i'll just post a song.


of all the things i've believe in.
i just want to get it over with.
tears form behind my eyes.
but i do not cry.
counting the days the pass me by.
i've been searching deep down in my soul.
words that i'm hearing are starting to get old.
feels like i'm starting all over again.
the last three years were jsut pretend.
and i said,
goodbye to you.
goodbye to everything that i knew.
you were the one i loved.
the one thing that i tried to hold on to.
i still get lost in your eyes.
and it seems that i can't live a day without you.
closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away.
to a place where i am blinded by the light.
but its not right.
and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time.
i want whats yours and i want whats mine.
i want you.but i'm not giving in this time.
goodbye to you.
goodbye to everything that i knew.
you were the one i loved.
the one thing that i tried to hold on to.
and when the stars fall
i will lie awake.
you're my shooting star.


you told me to say wha i wanted to say and do what i wanted to do.
well.
all i want is a hug.
i like hugs.
maybe thats all i need now.
a little uplift from all the commotion thats going on now.
thats all i'm going to say.
what i'm going to do?
nah.
there isn't anything much i want to do already.
too tired.
all i need is something to perk me up.

hokay.
smoke break.
maybe i'll blog later.